J-Pop stuff
accomplished

So what have Josie and I done in the first hour of 2005? Well, we got her a new blog layout and graphic she won't get sick of for a while and we drank four dollar champagne out of plastic cups to toasts only we would have probably made. So far, it's been pretty damn cool.

I picked her up at the airport last night around fifteen till six. I waited at gate 6 for a while, wondering if I was at the right place in that huge disgusting sprawl of humanity, then I perceptively spied her coming down the escalator. I walked up and waited till she noticed me...and when she did she came running at me and *jumped* on me, somehow thinking I was gonna be strong enough to carry her. I wasn't, but fortunately we didn't tumble down in a heap of embarrassment. It took forever to get back to Athens. We stopped for different stuff...ya know, food, a huge five mile long traffic jam, extra groceries, that sort of thing. Yeah...fun times.

She's decided there's a lot she wants to do but so far we've only gotten her a new bloggy layout and lots of photoshop goodness. Seriously. We're sittin in here doing almost nothing but graphics. It's been sick. I did take her uptown today though and walked around. That was fun. I got some vibes from one of my coworkers I saw on the street that I totally wish I hadn't. I'm officially scared for my life now. But hey, another story for another day, right?

It's been awesome. Josie is a lot more agreeable, easy going person than I thought she'd be. She's very laid back....she's always like "cool...whatever..." I must say I'm completely astounded. I expected her to be sarcastic, mean, and disagreeable. She's totally nothing of the sort. I don't know if she'd like me giving away the secret that she's a totally sweet person, but hey, here I am, tellin it as it is like I always do. I've really enjoyed hearing her perceptions of me too, having met me in person now, versus the perceptions of me from just talking to me online. It's really interesting....and I've been told some very cool things. *Very* cool.

Happy New Year everyone! I'll post my resolutions when I come up with more than one good one.


+ Mandy updated @ 1:06 AM

This is my nametag from work. I felt like such a badass when my boss handed this to me today.

+ Mandy updated @ 10:28 PM

silence
crampy (neck)

Okay rewind to yesterday....remember how I wondered if people could tell? Well.....no, they can't. But do they know? Yyeeeah....probably.

There's this little gaggle, this little clusterfuck of little high school brats that works there. I hate kids....well I hate redneck kids anyways. Anyway, I'm guessing they know by the way they acted toward me. Then again, they really didn't talk to any of the other girls there either, except the two little blonde herpes infestations that work there. These little ho bags kept staring at me the whole time, smiling occasionally...and I thought it was just because I was cuter than them and they were pissed off. That was probably part of it, but I'm guessing that they knew based on what the little inbred deer-killers told them.

Okay okay, so they know. *How* do they know?

I'm guessing one or some of them saw me at the Grease Hole and they couldn't wait to spread the word when they saw me working yesterday or today. I don't care all that much...I'd just rather they didn't out me to everyone working there....maybe I can use a spell for that....

I outed myself to this one girl, Danielle. She's a friend of Jakob's and she runs around with Open Doors so she's prolly good people. I thought it was a safe bet. I talked to a couple guys today though and didn't out myself, of course. I suppose it's too much to ask to work in a job where I'm only outed on my terms and no one knows except the people I tell. And judging by today, that could have happened....in a perfect world where no one saw me trying to be a boy before.

That, at least, is something to be happy about.


+ Mandy updated @ 5:17 PM

Do As Infinity - Shinjitsu No Shi
psyched

Stuff I'm working on now:

1)Josie's new blog layout (she's gonna have to help me when she gets here)
2)my new site layout (it's postponed now....I picked up some new inspiration and some new techniques and stuff today so it might be a while)
3)A new top secret project between me and Monica, called "Project: Pancreas".

What, you wanna know about Project: Pancreas? Well, I've declassified this much information for your consumption.

a) it's a trans-related project.
b) you're going to love it. yes, all of you.
c) it's interactive.
d) Monica and I have *huge* ambitions with this thing.
e) it's gonna be badass.

I've probably given you too much information already, so I'm gonna shut my trap right now.


+ Mandy updated @ 10:27 AM

Nirvana - Dive
somewhere between awake and thoughtful

I left Chillicothe at probably close to 2:40 yesterday. I was in McArthur by 3:00. Yeah. And I was in front of my apartment at exactly 3:30. I drive like a maniac when I think I'm gonna be late to my first job where I don't have to be in drag. I guess I drive like a maniac in a lot of other situations, too.

So I rush in the house carrying half my grocery bags in one hand (thank goddess for plastic bags), strip, change clothes, throw on makeup and fix my dirty ass hair (I didn't have time for a shower, okay?) in about ten or fifteen minutes - totally record time for me - and get my ass out the door, into my car, and uptown at five till. I got to work at exactly four. Exactly. Wow.

* A piece of advice for anyone here that wears any sort of fragrance...the first day on a job is the worst time to try out a new fragrance you just got. I walked in smelling like a ho.

The whole time I'm sitting there listening to this geeky, corny corporate guy tell us how to do certain stuff, I'm wishing someone had hooked me up with a snort of Ritalin so I could soak up more of what he was saying. But I was also thinking the whole time about how I've never in my whole life been so excited about such a low end job. I wasn't thrilled - I was too disconnected, tired, and ADD to be thrilled - but I was very, very excited.

But you can't be in this situation as a trans person and not sit there and dwell on the same stuff all the time. How well did I pass? Can people see through me? When those guys over there whispered to each other when it was my turn to introduce myself, I wonder what they were saying? Is it because I'm cute (guys are always suckers for pigtails) or is it because they've got transdar and can tell? A month and a half ago I was completely secure that I passed all the time. But now I'm not so sure. A certain someone (I won't say who) felt the need to tell his friends that I was trans, just to assure there would be no "surprises" when they met me. Am I that obvious? All this has shaken my faith in myself a little bit, but I do realize one really important thing. This job will help me like nothing else has. If I don't totally pass now, in three months I'll be confident enough to go in anywhere and not think a second thought.

Now if I could just leave the house a little earlier....


+ Mandy updated @ 8:04 AM

silence
amused

Arienne messaged me today and said this:

"Joy to the world, you're almost done. How will the place survive? No wallowing in grease again, no burgers shakes and fries again, and no more being a boy, and no more being a boy, and nooooo more being a boy!"

Arienne's great. :-D


+ Mandy updated @ 10:08 PM

Nirvana - Here I Am
(think about the cats on horse pills....!)
awake.....that's about it.

Thanks, Jen Jen!! By the way, I've got your gift. Which day is your AWE day? Or do you still have those?

I'm working on the graphics for my new site layout and I'm posting the new layout the first of January. You're all gonna have to tell me what you think. Too plain? Too bland? I'm adding a couple of new sections too....and heaven forgive me, I'm talking about trans issues on there for the first time in like three years. I'm adding a section called "the transsexual experience"....or something....yeah. I figure that since Google has me advertised as having trans information maybe I should actually talk a little about what the site deals with instead of being all artsy and cryptic all the time. Besides....I have a fanbase of like....fifteen people. No need to be pretentious. :-)

I get to go in tomorrow to be trained by the corporate people at my new job. I need to get off my lazy ass today sometime and call and find out when that's gonna happen.

Two more little gifts to buy for Kayte and Hope and I'm completely done with the holiday of togetherness and cheer. Togetherness and cheer. Hah.


+ Mandy updated @ 1:39 PM